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Listening to sunflowers

Whisper lullabies in my ears

I drift away

Away from logic and rules

Away from a world structured around adults

Into my own world.

 

Look around.

See the wonder of the lilies?

How is it that they float upon the water?

Perhaps little water faireis carry them

Upon their shoulders

As they dance below the surface

Creating bubbles in their wake.

 

I submerge myself in thoughts

Joining the fairies in their dance

I carry the weight of lilies on my back

No worries

No responsibilities

No constant fear of giants

Watching my every decision

With critical eyes

 

This is my world.

 

This is the real world.

 

Ignorance is bliss

Who said this?

Ignorance is ignorance

And childhood

Though fun

Is but a preview to life

 

Life is all bittersweet

A sour treat

Eternal but fleeting

Soaring and bleeding

Life is soft and intense

Both light and dense

And to see it you must see it all

 

Children are dragged

Into reality

Kicking and screaming

And I ask

Why?

You've nothing to lose

You are destined to gain

Life is delectable

But you mustsee

For real

What's really there

Nothing in this world is

Magic

It's so much more

With all

Reasons and purposes to explore

Everything is for a reason

All life follows rules

It is these

Patterns and consistencies

That are beautiful

It is this balance of life

Mathematics is the language

In which God has

Written the world

And decoding the world

And drinking it in

Accepting the beauty

Along with the sin

Is how you live life

This is how you deal

With the real

It's time to wake up

It's time to eat

From the tree of knowledge

And as Eve

It's time to leave

For something

Better and worse

It's time to let go

Of your naivety

It's time to

Become

A member of society

And you're going to need

A tighter grasp on reality

It is time to retire your

Fictional depiction of life

And embrace the good

And evil of the world.

 

There is a world that I see

But refuse to be a part of

A bland world of dull

Faded objects that have had all their color

Sucked out of them by time

Reducing them to

Achromatic figures

Containing no emotion

While all the commotion

Of metal and coal

Grinding together

In a sorely out of tune

Melody engulfs

The people living in this world.

 

If forced into this

Chaos

Against my own will

Would I be able to

Escape?

Could I ever forget?

Or would I be

Stuck

Behind an impenetrable glass wall

Forever

Able to remember

Perfect bliss

But never able to reach it?

 

But I am alone in my worrying

Children strive to be closer

To the real world

Too eager to leave their own

So willing to leave behind

Simple pleasures

In pursuit of

Big complications

And grown-ups encourage this desire.

"Will you PLEASE grow up?"

They say

As if they couldn't bear

One more day

Of witnessing a

Utopia

They used to have

But they have now become

Close relatives to vegetables

And have innovated Utopia

As an idea

That they can look forward to

After they

Rape this world

And leave it for the flies.

But you cannot reach

Something

You only look forward to

And do not pursue.

 

I pursue knowledge.

 

I pursue joy.

 

I remember innocent joy.

Not having to worry about

The consequences of my actions

Now

All I do is think about

What will happen

Not what is happening.

 

I envy those

Who have succeeded in beginning to

Grasp a thread of the answer

Why?

 

I want to pursue joy.

 

I want to pursue knowledge.

 

Can I live in both worlds?